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Today’s episode should be called What in the holy BLEEP because this isn’t going to go over well. When shit gets real, it doesn’t usually pan out very well for the whistleblower or the truth-teller. Fuck it though; let’s hit it.
A lot has been on my mind as usual. I always have so much to say but I rarely say it all, if at all, because people in general can’t handle the truth. If they were given two choices- comfortable lies or truths- they’d go for the comfortable lies. Me? I want hard truths. Truth, although it does hurt at times, is not a detriment. It’s a push forward. It’s a discussion yearning to be had.
Humans are very judgmental. We won’t even bother to walk a mile before casting stones. When it comes to recent cases that hit hard in the mainstream media, I wonder if anybody is looking at all angles and truly analyzing what went on, why, how to fix it. If not fix it, how to make it better for tomorrow because obviously yesterday was shit. I’m gonna really get it for this but two human beings come to mind- Derek Chauvin and Brian Laundrie. I won’t go into the politics nor am I condoning violence or bad behavior but it must be said. So, hate me if you want, but I’m going to say it.
Derek wasn’t by any means right in what he did. It wouldn’t have mattered what George did in his life here on Earth to make what happened to him right. But when I saw Derek’s photo after his arrest, I saw a lot. It was written all over his eyes. Most people, if not all, believed he was only upset because he was caught. They see him as an ego-maniac who couldn’t control that ego and killed a man without remorse out of spite. I saw otherwise. I saw a man who learned somewhere along his journey how to be neglectful of others. I saw a man whose wife left him, who society persecuted to the fullest. I saw a man who had already been led astray in his earlier years further led astray by mainstream injustice.
It is not a right of any of ours to need details of a crime. It’s not our business. Yes, we are citizens and this is a society with laws, but what he or she does is not us. Their story is not ours. We have no clue all the aspects involved. It’s like those movies about criminals that really get into their life. Often times, the viewer eventually sympathizes and gains an understanding of that crime and all the whys that nobody ever bothered to ask or analyze. Life isn’t a movie but movies hold aspects of real life.
In that photo of Derek, I saw a man who lost it all because of a moment of ego. But do his moments of ego say he should be persecuted and dragged through the mud over and over and over again? How long does a person pay for what they did- forever? Until their last breath? After they die? When does persecution end and rehabilitation begin? Say I was Derek. I could picture myself acting a fool with a crowd barking orders at me. I’d lived a life of orders barked at me. Maybe Derek did too. I could see how he did what he did without intending to hurt or harm. Sometimes if you have a dark life, it overtakes your logic. I’ve acted a fool but I’m not one. My terrible disgusting moments don’t define me. It’s how I redeem myself that matters. But guess what? We didn’t give Derek that opportunity to learn and live better tomorrow, to do better. I honestly fear by the public persecution and hate, we may have created more of a demon than before.
We all live our lives asking to be heard, to be seen, understood. What makes any of us so special that it’s only about us? Why can’t we hear, see, understand others- even the bastards and assholes?
This brings me to Brian Laundrie. I may not have followed the case but I do use Youtube so it’s safe to say the case followed me. It was always on my feed. I understand the pain and heartache and injustice of what happened to Gabrielle. What I do not understand is why his parents got the shit shaft. I don’t know about you but I know I personally love my kids more than anything and more than everything combined. I would rather die than lose them. If I was at a cliff and both my babygirl slipped along with the kid next to her. Say I was there and I was the one who held onto both of them- like that scene with Elijah Wood and Macauley Culkin in The Good Son. Say I had a choice of who I had to let go of to benefit the other, or else everybody loses. Without hesitation, I would hang onto my child and let go of someone else’s child.
This is what the Laundries did. I read the comments on videos. I pray Brian’s parents didn’t. Most people, if not all, were condemning the Laundries, like “what if it was your kid?” or “they owe the Petitos answers”. I always sat back and said “Why?” Yes, you would want somebody to step up and speak up so it benefits you. The facts are it wasn’t their child. They chose their child over anothers. We all would do the same. I also put myself in Brians shoes. I wondered what I’d do in a particular scenario. All I can say, in this life, in this kind of world, with this kind of insensitive society, I would’ve stayed quiet too. All I can is they lost a lot in this too. I guarantee you they did grieve Gabrielle too. Even if they showed it, it’s too late- the public already chose whose side they were on. The other side held no chance. Their tears or grief would’ve been called “fake” or “lies”. Now, they lost their son. Now, the public of against them. Life is so different now. I can understand that loss, that kind of pain. As a society, it’s not our place to judge or scorn or dictate what they should have done. I can say it’s rule #1 to shhhh when questioned by the police and get an attorney. That is what they did and we cannot fault them for that. To also see a society that grieved for the death of the girlfriend with no regard to their son, I don’t know if I’d feel I owed anybody anything either.
Last but not least, Aguilera-Mederos, the truckers whose 100-year sentence got reduced. Many say, not all, that he could have done differently and was responsible for the other lives lost. I disagree. I know my situation is not as severe but when I was a kid I was going down this big hill on my new bicycle. I saw the car coming. I saw it. All I did was close my eyes and brace myself for the impact. I knew it’d happen anyway. Due to this minor incident in my youth, I can damn well picture myself closing my eyes and saying my last prayers before the blackness came, before nothingness came. If my truck lost its brakes and I was in a panic flying down a hill thinking I’d die, I truly don’t think I could scan my surroundings for a way to spare the lives of others. It’s not selfish, it’s reality.
Fast forward to court. He was truly remorseful. The majority was right with him. An accident is just that sometimes, an accident. Not all loss needs someone to pay for it. Sometimes losses happen, accidents and mistakes happen. It’s as if you can’t take any job now where there’s any interaction with people. It’s too much of a risk. They could sue. You could have a bad day and say the wrong thing and someone could film you. There was a case of a lifeguard who didn’t rescue a child quick enough although the mother was right there and swimming, like all else you choose to do, is at-your-own-risk. Why only point the finger at the lifeguard who had 15 other kids to keep an eye on instead of the mother who only had one? It’s bullshit. You can’t even have a CPR-certification without being responsible for literally everyone’s life around you. These kinds of things make sensible logical people not want to be a trucker or a lifeguard or get that certification, etc.
That’s my rant. Most of you probably disagree. But that’s ok. How do you think society has gotten as far as this in what little time we had- discussion and trial and error, right? If we can’t disagree on things without you wanting to cancel me or fuck my life up, ruin all the stuff I built in my yesteryears for one horrible moment or two, we don’t stand a chance. Regarding the first two men I mentioned in this video, I see all sides, I feel for ALL parties involved. I can imagine what it’d feel like on both sides. However, disagree or not, you want me on your jury if ever you fuck it up. And you will. We all do. Some of us just don’t get caught. Having a person with an open mindset and knowledge of mind and matter, nature and nurture, lifes woes and what can cause a human to turn into a devil on your jury benefits everyone. I wouldn’t scorn you for your crimes or wrongdoings. I may judge a little but, eventually, I absolutely would want to learn about it. So, if you fuck it up later on, and I’m on your jury, you’ll be like “I should’ve never been an asshole to that chick for seeing all sides”. Also, it’s a huge detriment to society to get rid of everything that hurts you or reminds you of bad stuff. That’s not real life. You can’t say “ouch” then snap your fingers and poof! It’s gone! Life isn’t like that.
K, that’s it. Until next time when I’ll be bitching and moaning about snowflakes, bullshit movements, pedophiles, hit & runs and stuff. Pedophiles and hit and runs?! Dafuq? Yea, you heard it. I have an opinion. Only one other person on this planet that I have heard agrees with my take on it and that is Teal Swan. I don’t follow her. I just stumbled on a couple videos that I agree with so I gave a listen. Remember, to understand and see all sides, sometimes you give a listen to even the things you don’t want to.
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