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Why this video? Well, we all know about the invasion on Ukraine. We all know what kind of evil is going on right now, as we speak. Some of us, INFJs in particular, are feeling it. This feeling of sadness is super heavy. I’m personally shook. There is lead in my gut. In short, I feel if leaders want to fight one another, they need to get into a ring and leave the rest of the world out of it. It’s a disgusting narcissistic petty act of whose dick is bigger. The one who swings the hardest obviously has more to prove, now doesn’t he?
So this Russia-Ukraine War has me feeling lots of sadness and a kind of despair easily put into words. It’s familiar. See, I am a direct descendant of war, a daughter of a Korean War victim. In 1951 South Korea was invaded. My mom was a teeny weeny kid. 8. Her village got blasted. It’s not even on the map anymore. It does not exist. Her birth certificate is on rice paper. She got pushed south from the north, her now the leader of the Chang sibling tribe 4-strong with 2 dead parents. I don’t know where the kids hid, when they reached safety or if any adults looked after them once they reached South Korea. I don’t know what Ma ate, where she slept but I do know, now at near 80, those war cuts still run deep. Those scars from 8 lasted her a lifetime. Now her brain is attacking her and she’ll never see Korea or her 2 brothers and sister again. All her history will be lost.
Knowing how civilians suffer makes this war hurt deeply. When I heard of the invasion on Ukraine, it was real. So far away, just some chick in America, I still felt like an 8 year old stuck in Korea. I cried. I felt it in my chest. My stomach twisted. I pictured being a child, with glitter-coated eyes still believing in magic dust, hearing bombs, seeing flames, watching the adults around them worry. They don’t understand what’s really going on, the games being played, the power involved. They’re kids. They’re bundles of snot who sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star out of the blue while playing a game of make-believe. They are curiosity, mischief and imagination on two legs. They hug new friends on the playground and feed their last grape to their favorite stuffed animal.
Children have faith in our world. As grown-ups, we need to keep that faith going because we need their unique kindness and their song. Adults- we’re already jaded. The glitter coating dissolved from our eyes long ago. Even as an adult though, there’s still that kid in all of us. The thought of all those people big or little, scared, trapped as pawns on a shady ass chessboard, cracks my heart.
Here’s a chart that always stuck with me (chart: cycle of war):
In a world with so many people and ideas, beliefs and ideologies, discussion and negotiation falls off the table. We’re too busy validating our worth while proving everyone else is wrong. If you dwell on the fact that humans repeat cycles all for the sake of a win, it’s enough to shake you. Dwell too long, it’s enough to cause your loss of faith in humanity.
In my teeny tiny world, from the smallest channel in youtubeland, I send so much love and warmth to all those involved in this war in Ukraine. The secrets of the universe are locked within vibration, frequency, energy. So, everybody watching, if we all send our bundled energy balls of love, we could create a protective energetic field around the most vulnerable. Look at the power all those prayers worldwide had for the Cokeville disaster. All those individual prayers got bundled into protection for those children. We can do the same for Ukraine. We can at least try. Crazy or not, that’s the most common regret in life- not trying.
One by one, let’s send our loving energy to Ukraine. Hands and hearts up, INFJs, our light is needed right now.
If you’d like to learn more or help out with the Chang Sibling Reunification Fund, please visit theknight.site/changreunification . It may seem like it’s too late to reunite the Chang siblings of the Korean War but only time can tell. All I can do is try. If I was that 8 year old, I’d want someone to try for me, someone to restore my faith in humanity before I go. Knowing how much my mother loves her two brothers and sister, I’d want to see my loves in my final chapter too.
Now, for the ones who need this message, you landed on it for a reason. I understand life gets dark and it can dim our faith. Oddly, the sadness proves we stand a chance. Buddha said life is suffering. Tesla believed life is energy. Both were right- we gotta use our sufferings wisely. Keep caring, just balance the scales and care more about yourself too because you’re fucking worth it and don’t you forget it.
Thanks so much for listening. Sparkle bright. I mean it.
All my love, Sadie Alexa Knight
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